Went off school early today to see the doctor,
which means i didn't go for microbio prac.

Having a headache whole day & keep perspiring..
couldn't take it anymore after the IFS prac,
so went back admiralty to see the doctor.

My eyes are getting more swollen,
i've lose my appetite since yesterday.
i just realise i ate nothing the whole day,
just a piece of bread since 8am till now.

i needed painkillers.
only painkillers can stop the pain in my head now.
or maybe, the pain everywhere.

Suddenly it rained heavily,
and i just walked blindly.
I was soaked back home,
after walking under the rain.
alot of things came through my mind.

Thanks mama,
for the cup of warm water.
worrying me & giving me calls.
It really helped me alot,
& warmed me alot.



I'm collapsing soon..
very soon.




- Felt so cold and insecured, even when i'm not under the rain.

I'm not okay..
i'm not.


I'm... lost.

J.