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Nothing in this world is perfect to me.
So I don't believe in perfections.







Date: Thursday, August 27, 2009 5:36 PM

Please don't read this if you don't want to read boring stuff.
You can choose not to read this because,
I don't even know what i'm writing.
Alot of things in running though my mind,
but i just dont know how to express them in words.


Nevermind,
i'm okay.

I won't break down because of this and that.
I know i don't deserve those anyway.

Maybe i should just go out and have a walk.
Or maybe i should just stay home and sleep all i can.

I can't believe, can't understand.
Everything that's happening.

Why is this, happening again and again.
I know the answer myself, but everytime i pick up myself.
Something else happens again.
Am i even feeling sorry and pathetic for myself that i've said so much,
getting so agitated and worried like it's the end of the world
and wanting to get some care and concern after a downpour even though in the end,
only a few words was what i had?

I've a blog, so as to write down my feelings and thoughts.
To write down the memories of each day, those times I shared with my fam, friends and him.

When i'm reading it,
i realised my life is full of ups and downs.
It can be happy times, or sad, or very demoralising, or disappointment.
They are memories that no one can steal, that no one can feel.

Like people said, "Life is like a roller coaster ride."
And when things get deeper in mind,
it's so deep like an ocean that I can't even understand it myself.

"Until you drop into the pit of nowhere, you'll never learn."
True enough?

Until when you lose the things or people who are close and special to you,
you'll learn that you have to treasure and cherish what you have.
Until when you fall down while learning to ride the bicycle,
you'll learn how to get it right.
Until when you fail for your exams so badly,
you'll learn how to study hard and do well for it.

Maybe I've reached the wall.
The wall which Mr Lathif said.
That blocked my path and I can't move on.
I admit i did tell myself to give up sometimes,
but afterall I didn't.
Because i cared, and i know by giving up.
It won't do anyone good, and absolutely won't do myself good.



What is wrong with me, or everything that's happening around me?
All i wish is everyone around me to be happy and safe.
Okay? Please fulfill this wish for me.


Remember, my existence.
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