To hold her.
To protect her.
To embrace her.
"Willing", as i said.

Whenever i'm on the train back home alone,
I see those people, together like how it appeared in my dreams.
That appear like how I wanted it to be.
(Anw, idk how to put it in words but.. this is not the main point.)

I know sometimes, people don't meant what they said. I just know, those words just came out unintentionally. But those words still insist to mumble into my mind, pestering me like 打不死的蟑螂. Because it seems too real to me that I cant stop to believe it's true.

(Okay crap, it suddenly rained so heavily and i'm alone at home =_=ll And the house lights blinked once just now. Wth. Freaking freaked out, someone help me T_T_T_T_T I have a feeling minutes later, the house will blackout. Shit. SOMEONE PLS COME PEI ME ):)

Sigh, no use rumbling over this kaboom situation.

Anyway.
Back to the topic.

Someone told me before,
people must trust each other to build a friendship.
And people must compromise each other to build a relationship.

I wonder, am I the exception that doesn't resemblence the characteristics of a typical girl.
Maybe i'm different from other girls, but still.
Girls are just simple mammals :)
They ain't complicated, neither do they like to make things complicated.
They might be a little indesicive sometimes, not wanting to understand or accept the fact that "whatever-it-is-thing" has happened.
Girls dream to have a pair of hands that protects them, that holds them tightly not willing to let go.
Sometimes, i think i'm quite stubborn.
These questions will float inside my mind, worrying this worrying that.
"Will I be a friend that people would like to hang out with?"
"Do they enjoy being with me?"
"Is my mum fine at home?"
"Did she manage to have her lunch?"
"Did he manage to have his lunch?"
"What is he doing?"
"Did he get home safely?"
"Did he miss me?"
"Will he ask these ques and worry me the same way as I do?"

Sometimes, when I think twice of what people say.
I could feel that they actually meant it otherwise.
Its just the mask that they're wearing,
it covers their real identity, their real character, their realistic form.

(Interrupted, yay rain has finally stopped.)

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

Cherish what you have now, it will be too late for you to realise when you've already lose it.
想做一件事,就去做.
不是等到最后一刻事情发生了, 才去做.
任何事都一定要积极争取，而不能守株待兔.
Because I don't believe, miracles will happen.

Cherish and treasure what you have.
Even when you already have it in your hands.
Protect and love it all you can.

I've alot alot alot of things running in my mind now, yet unexplainable and undescribable.

p.s. Anyway, this post is not referring to anyone, so don't misunderstood and think too much about it. It's just some things thats running in my mind that i want to pen down on. Understood-ed?
:)

p.p.s. And grats ah wong for her promotion! :) Heehee.

p.p.p.s. Does anyone think the same way as I do? \:

-Initiations.

J.